31 Temmuz 2007 Salı

Değer

... beş para etmez adamsın sen! Eminim yüzüne bunu söylediğimde daha çok değer verirdin bana!...

07 '06

29 Temmuz 2007 Pazar

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Dear Lucia, I am still shocked. I cant even sleep well. I cannot explain how concerned I am about the future of Turkey. Economy is said to be the main reason why this government is considered successful but in the period they were in rule, no where in the world had economic crises. Economy goes well everywhere. Every country grows and Turkey is the one with the lowest rate. Still they think that Erdogan made it! Also, nobody talks about the deficit in current account. Due to low exchange rate and high interest rates, TL is over-valued and this has great impact in foreing trade deficit. Imports have increased so much that increases in exports are totally wiped away. Moreover, the stock market is considered an indicator of economic wellbeing. Our stockmarket index increases ok, but over 70% of the money in the stock market is owned by foreigners. This money will go as soon as any sign of less profit emerges. Then a great crise will be waiting for us. But, my people who are each an expert in economics, examined the data and decided that economy goes well!! Yeah, thats so bull shit!!

Anyway, about the PKK.. Yes, you are right. They are the ones I mentioned as "independent" depuities who have no party. In fact, they have a policitical party which wants to establish a Kurdish country. You know, there is a barrier in Turkey that no party can have seats in the assembly unless they have over 10% of overall votes. These PKK supporters cannot have seats because their party is voted only in that region and so they cannot have 10% of the votes. However, this election made it clear that this barrier is nonsense. There are over 20 of them and now they can even form a group in the assembly. They want Turkey to be divided into states. We all know that the next move is to make those states an independent countries. This is how people think democracy is. On TV, they ask people why they voted for AKP and some people say that they voted because they like the way Erdogan walks! And they expect me to believe that people in Turkey have chosen democracy in this election!!

You know? Erdogan's son didnt join the army which is compulsory for every Turkish male. He had a scholarship which is supposed to be given to people who have the desire to study but cannot afford it. And after coming back to Turkey, he bought a huge ship. People all know that. People know that while their son's dead body comes shot by the terrorists, the person whose walk is so impressive have his son in very expensive ships. And voted for him. I cannot understand it.

New deputies havent started working yet, but some AKP deputies started talking about changing the constitution. They want to get the main princibles out of the constitution so that they can change the way Turkey is administered. They think that secularism is demoded now, and we need to have a Islamic law. And having 46% of the votes, they think that people in Turkey also think so. And i cannot understand what will EU or USA will get if Turkey has Islamic Law. Why do they want so? Please help me understand why..

Dear Lucia, there are lots of issues to tell.. I dont know, maybe I am exagerating the situtation. Maybe they are right. I am so confused. People who were against AKP are now besides it. The economic rant made the Turks so servile. They are talking about the increasing GDP but they are aware of their decreasing purchasing power. Increasing GDP only helps to make the rich richer, the poor more poorer because it doensnt result from increasing investments.

Anyway, today we have one more Turkish soldier killed by the terrorists and I am afraid his family also voted for AKP knowing that government began ruling with almost no terrorism and ended with dead soldiers everyday. I cant say anything..

I hope your workings go well. Last week, the weather was so hot that i couldnt even go to work. And this week, we will start having water shortages. We will have water for 2 days and on the next two days there will be no water. Why? Because Ankara has run out of its water resources and the people in charge didnt do anything as a precaution. Guess from which party these people were elected! Anyway, i see myself as a person who critises everything, always complaining. But you see, nowadays, nothing is going well.. Hope your life is better..

Best wishes from Ankara,

Selcan

18 Temmuz 2007 Çarşamba

Cemresi Oluruz Yarınların


Külhani bir sevinç
Sarar ansızın yüreğimi.
Yeniden oluşturmak gibi
Gündüzü ya da geceyi.
Bir kıvılcım vardı önce,
Yarım kalmış bir hece.
Yağmurlu bir kent sonra.
Yorgun düşen git gide...

Ve sanki hiçbir şey yaşanmamış gibi
Maskelerini kuşandı insanlar!

Rüzgara savruldu sesim,
Yarım kalmış bir şarkıdan.

Suskunluğu öğrendi insanlar!

Ve belki sen, belki ben...
Belki de biz ve onlar...
Kumdan kaleler kuran denize doğru.
Bakarsın çoğalırız yaşam denen bu oyunda;
Cemresi oluruz yarınların!

Aynadan bakan
yabancı yüzler örter üstümü.

Kurşuna dizilmiş bir şehir
olur düşlerim!

İki gözüm iki yağmur,
henüz aşkı tatmamış...

Oysa sen, belki ben,
bir suç ya da bir kusur...


Ve sanki tüm bunlar birer masal gibi,
Maskelerini kuşandı insanlar!

Rüzgara savruldu sesim,

Yarım kalmış bir sayfadan.

Suskunluğu öğrendi insanlar...


Ve belki sen, belki ben;
Belki de biz ve onlar.
Kumdan kaleler kuran denize doğru.
Bakarsın çoğalırız yaşam denen bu oyunda;
Cemresi oluruz yarınların!

Cemresi oluruz yarınların...


12 Temmuz 2007 Perşembe

Regret

...then i realized something: it should have been me!
in the Scrubs

6 Temmuz 2007 Cuma

Yanında..

...aşk, sevilen nesnenin yanında bulunmayı zorunlu kılıyordu...

Simyacı
Paulo Coelho

Yürü Yüreğim


Her yürek kayıp verir,
Ağır olur yenilgi.
Kabullenmek zor gelir,
Adı aşk, bu hatır değil ki!

Sevmedin, sevemedin.
Kabul etmek suçtu sanki!
Hep vermeden istedin,
Bu kalp benim; ödünç değil ki!

Bu kadar anla yeter.
Acı zamanla geçer.
Bilmiyorsan hiç değilse
Hasrete saygı göster.

Yürü yüreğim gidelim buralardan,
Aşk bizimle değil.
Sana buralarda bir şey olsa
Kimsenin umrunda değil!
Anıları, acıları bir araya topla;
Yak dağıt külleri.
Bize de güler bu hayat nasıl olsa;
Hiç umrumda değil!